(This is the first part in a series of ... many. It features a writer and his ward - the narrator, a young social science student - getting embroiled in the local politics of a village in coastal Karnataka.)
On the 7th
of January 1995, the writer was murdered. Shot. By a bullet fired from nine
feet away. The writer had a half-smile on his face. I didn’t see the body, but
Ramesha – the old chemistry lab
assistant at our high school, famed for his penchant for hyperbole – did, and said to me: “What a crazy guy the writer was! To see a bullet – death – in the eye and smile? Unique
in human history!”
I was
sure it wasn’t unique. In fact, I had evidence of the contrary: on the
seventeenth day of the Mahabharata war, which both the writer and I considered more
fact than fiction, Karna did the same. The scene is gutting: desperately
attempting to dislodge his sinking chariot wheel, Karna - unarmed - pleads for a pause in battle.
However, goaded by an unforgiving Krishna, Arjuna fires an arrow aimed at Karna’s neck. Notwithstanding the injustice of it all, Karna embraces
death with a smile.
Karna
smiles because death comes as relief from a tragic life; the writer, on the
other hand, must have had a joke strike him as he eyed the bullet.
*
The
writer and I had a conversation about death once. I had gone to see him and as
was my wont, took some charmuri along.
As I
entered, the old grandfather clock in the living room struck four. I found the
writer in his usual position. On the floor, by a window, his back against a
pillow propped by a wall; papers, filled with neat cursive ink, strewn across
the carpet. A single sheet, a Parker pen and an ink-pot adorned the “writing
table” – no more than a two-foot foldable contraption with a wooden surface – by
his side. He was very proud of that table for he had built it from scratch. He
had just made tea.
“Ah, charmuri!
What timing!” he said, making to get me a cup of tea as well.
“I have
a knack, you know – serves me well, especially through the off-side”, I said.
He smiled
and asked:
“How is
work coming along?”
“Not bad
– I may finally be funded to collect data on some of these village santhes”
“I was
born in a village”, he said and paused dramatically.
“I was
born in a village
I will
die in a city
What a
real pity,
Makes me
feel shitty.”
He was
pleased with himself.
“Such a clever ditty”, I said
sarcastically.
“Don’t
mock me, young man – these ditties, born out of ennui, composed in a flash,
will die with me, unrecorded, unwritten.”
“This
shitty one will survive”, I said, “when I write a novel, I will write you in as
a character just so you can spout this nonsense.”
“When you write your novel … I will be
gone by then.”
“Why do
you think you will die? Fifty-five is too young to go – you have another twenty
years, at the very least!”
“I won’t
die of ill-health”, he said, “I will die because my time would have come.”
“Whatever
that means.”
“It
means nothing. I was just spouting faux-abstruse stuff – “
“—making
sure you don’t only come across as a one-note impromptu ditty-writer in my
future novel?”
“One-note impromptu ditty-writer: you
read my mind like it’s the top row of the optometrist’s board.”
Now that was a truly great impromptu line.
We spoke,
mostly about cricket, till the crickets, frogs and owls were well into their
nightly symphony… The writer was right though. He didn’t die in his village,
nor did he succumb to ill-health.
And
while you are reading this, he never did.
*
When I
first met the writer, he was walking briskly, like a man attempting to keep
pace with his thoughts. I was walking briskly too – a man keeping pace with his
racing heart. It was a typical October day, the air bit like a swarm of stingless
bees. As we crossed each other, the writer looked at me and smiled. Back then,
strangers smiled at each other. I smiled back and squinted to look beyond him,
at the entrance to the girls’ hostel.
“Are you
the young economist?”, he asked. We lived in a small university town, where everyone
knew of everyone else.
“No”, I
said, unthinkingly.
My
subconscious mind had made a heuristic choice to answer in the negative when
faced with a question from persons a generation older.
“Liar”,
the writer said.
“Yes,
yes”, I quickly corrected myself, “I am the young
economist.”
“Well?
We must meet then!”
“Sure!”,
I said, somewhat too enthusiastically, attempting to compensate for the lack of
eye-contact.
“Ice
Land hotel? Tea and bonda? Four in
the evening, Friday?”
“Huh?”, I
said, “Okay, okay.”
*
“You’re early.”,
the writer announced, when I turned up at Ice Land at five to four on Friday.
His beak-nose peered from above the Udayavani,
the local Kannada daily.
“You’re
early too.”, I said.
He
returned to his newspaper as I drew myself a chair.
“You
know what they say about great minds”, I said.
“That
they think punctual thoughts?”, he muttered, still staring squarely at the
newspaper through his brown-rimmed glasses.
“That
they make terrible jokes.”, I said and laughed, to hide my embarrassment. I was
somewhat taken aback by my audacity: I didn’t usually wisecrack with people
twice my age, especially if I have just met them.
He
smiled and put his newspaper down. A waiter walked up to us.
“Yenuntu?”, I asked the waiter. What
do you have?
I knew
exactly what they had (they serve the same things to this day, twenty-two years
later). I leaned back on my chair and shut my eyes: inside, the clang
of vessels clashed with the sound of scuffing chappals and wooden chairs;
outside, a city-bus engaged in friendly fire with another.
And sure enough,
there it came, the familiar answer to my question: a torrent of sweets,
savories, beverages – twenty-one items on the menu, rattled off in a rushed
four seconds.
In that instant, had the writer had asked me, “What is home?”,
I’d have answered: